I Forgot.

A Confession.

Oh, I promise I won't forget.

So loaded, the statement seemed to fade.

As soon as it unfolded out of my mouth

I knew that the past couldn't be erased.

Who was I trying to disgrace?

Unwillingly I was disgracing me

I seemed not to care.

Not trying but I was disgracing you too.

Do you remember how I forgot?

You said, " Never take me for granted."

At the time I didn't know what that meant.

I acted like I did, but I didn't.

I said that I'd always be there

Knowing that I couldn't always be.

It seemed to be a forgotten art.

How I felt was all a mask

Covering up the things I was afraid to ask

I told you you were hurting me

That's how I made myself feel

Depression swept over me, over you

I didn't know what else to do

I wanted the fairy tale story

To know what it was like to be free

I kept pretending

A child-like pretending that brings bliss

A dream so beautiful

You couldn't determine if it was actual life

Or a fictional novel that I was living out.

I saw the fake it me, you saw the love

Often I'd see you cry, only to cry with you.

I couldn't utter words to say

Because I was hurting too.

It wasn't anything you did 

It was simple because I forgot.

That I loved you.