For The Beauty Of The Blue Sky.

With you, I want to follow the unknow trail.
Seek to stand at the end of the rainbow's tail,
During a rainstorm as the sun breaks through the clouds.
With you, I want to learn the story about the sun, about the sky, 'bout the winds and why they cry.
For you rival the beauty of the tree's leaves changing into vibrant colors just before going into hiding.
I want to be kept safe in the crest of your wave,
Crashing through the adventures of life seeking to spread our love.
With you, I want to taste the bitterness of bold coffee against your soft lips
Because you still linger with me as I wake
For you are a dream that I seek and see when I sleep
A dream, that one day, I will catch up to, cherish, and keep.

The Rulers Of Expectations

You've been in my shoes.
So where is the similar thinking?
I know you've felt my pain.
Yet you don't yearn to know why I am hurting.
I've only heard those words four times in my life...

So I find love on my own.
Yet you discipline me for looking in the wrong places.
Again and again I run into a wall.
You see me struggle.
But brush it off.
As your son, must I make the initiative for you to find interest in me?
I'm transforming into a machine.
Blocking everything out that comes my way.
Emotional neglection forced inward interaction
And as I interact with myself, I shut the world out.
One day I will overcome this pain.
But for now I ponder why it still eats away at my brain.

Inhale Deep.

Sometimes when I write, I'm wrapped up in my feelings.

Sometimes I write just to feel.

But in my head it doesn't seem this real.

How have I gone this far? -as if I don't know.

My feelings are concealed and very few people will ever see them shown.

Because I can never let them see me while I'm down- they'll kick me even harder.

So I ask for them to stop.

Which in turn only sparks a fire of derogative excuses

Jokingly saying that I'll never tighten the nooses.

"Of course he'll never kill himself."

As a transcendental idealist, I can only will myself.

Instead of seeking my plot of revenge, I reach deep

Trying to show love for others because I know how it feels to be unloved.

I catch myself respecting my peers because often I'm disrespected.

I seek to shed the negativity so the positive layer can shine.

See, you have to know the bottom in order to see eye to eye.

Continue to have interactions with minds whose third eye is blind.

They too must learn. I was there once. So were you.

Just inhale deep... Then move on.

The Spirit will show me the correct path.

There I find peace. In essence I find me.

The Bark Is Being Ripped Back.

Coming into this life as pure as a diamond.
Being force fed false realities portrayed as obvious truth.
They wonder where the mentally ill originates.

Where does this hate arise?
Does it originate in the heart?
Or was it placed there by another spirit.

I try to conquer the lonely abyss that resides in my deepest crevices
My ego arises but then fades yet again like the tides of the oceans.
I defiantly resist the aging of my spirit but I can not do the same for my physical self.
I will not allow time to escape as a wasted medium.

84,600 seconds in a day, 900 of which were spent on this developing story.

I yearn to find my character, to live out his position in this movie.
He seems so close yet just out of react.
So I rip apart the bark that holds me back- only to find more bark.

When I move on I hope I am once again pure.
But more like a refined bar of gold, no longer the diamond I once was.
Because along the way, my impurities that were collected will be erased.
Then I know I will truly be ready for the escape.

Keep A Close Eye.

I'm trying to find a balance.

I sit and ponder why the ego has become the top priority in American society.
Yes, I'm guilty of complaining and often I'm not willing to make a difference in humanity.
But at least I admit it.
It's as if I fear how I feel inside.
How will others react when they see their reflection in my eyes?
I see people preying on the innocent.
Just so a couple of bodies may like what was said.
So rash.

I'm trying to find a balanace.

Is life's foundation built on love for humanity or love for the self?
I've seen every positive motive fade and die.
Hate arises and the ego soars into a self centered lifestyle.
You know, I never liked The Black Eyed Peas, but where is the love?
They cry "God Bless America" but it seems someone stole the "b" from bless.
I can feel a storm brewing, something is not right.
Equality is growing closer to make ends meet, but we have so far to go.
And how will ever reach our full potential when our leaders love the taste of blood?
Yes, stupidity builds at the base, not the top of the ladder.
It seemingly moves back and forth between both sides.

I'm trying to find a balance.

I'm just trying to be rational when I ask, "Where did all of the passion go?"
Have we passed the point of no return?
I hope not. I've see hope. I know hope.
A slogan portrayed as change but none has been made.
Media portrays so many fake lives.
I guess everyone needs a thrill.
Uprooting the youth from humanity for a buck is not the right way to find that thrill.

I'm trying to find a balance.

I've been pushed off the beaten path.
Learning to love and just to be myself.
I guess this is bye-bye miss American pie.
Said a small prayer for the progress inside.
Felt a heart beat build into a cry
Singing this will be the day that I die.

I'm trying to build a balance.

You Can't Kill Love.

Love.
This feeling of uncontrollable serenity.
When you smile without reason.
It encompasses happiness and overcomes anxiety.
All worries fade.
Cares turn to motives.
Feelings turn into actions.
Finding excuses to help others, knowing they can't return the favor.
Giving someone your seat on the bus after you've had a tiring shift at work.
Loving God with all of your heart, soul, and mind. And truly make the effort.
Everything else will fall into place.
Loving your neighbor as you love yourself. And truly make the effort.
Life will change in a blink of an eye, with love.
Consider your pain, then realise there are seven billion people on Earth that are struggling too.
Love breaks apart the ego.
It will shatter selfish walls stacked miles high.
Humanity's need for love far exceeds love's need for humanity.
Love is established.
It can't be broken and it will never die.
Learn to love and you will learn to truly live.

New Beginnings.

The sun is shining, lighting up my soul.
Rays of happiness tearing apart the winter spell.
As if light were the single dial for positive mood control.
Life seemingly regenerates like a multiplying cell.
The air tastes different.
Birds are singing a joyous song.
Crepuscular rays come and go in an instant.
Breaking through the clouds like a barrier that held back beauty for so long.
My mood won't stay this way forever.
Life's cycle is a vicious endeavour.
Learning from everything that I've done .
I know trials are yet to come.
Needing nine signs to reach a kingpin.
Call all of the king's horses and all the king's men,
Because being broken is nothing that I lack.
Joy shines through the cracks of the past
Eliminating everything that tried to hold me back.
This is a new beginning.
Knowing that life is not always about winning
But enduring.
Moving on and staying strong.
Be better than the person you were yesterday.
And never lose sight of the prize that awaits.